Posted by: healingseeker | February 7, 2010

It’s just too weird that I could have breast cancer!

7 Feb 2010

It’s just too weird that I could have breast cancer. Today, I’m sitting here thinking, “What? Huh? How can that be? Me? Breast Cancer? NOT!”

I’m not scared. It doesn’t feel like a death sentence. It’s just bizarre and strange that 2010 is going to take me on this rather strange and bizarre journey.

It doesn’t own me. I’m working on not owning it. I have been getting pretty one-tracked. I would like to find a good way to regain my balance and focus on some of my other interests as well.

Like, for example, I have been very negligent about making my regular conflict resolution postings. I have been neglecting some other things as well. I’ve consciously allowed myself to slow down my work ethic. I’ve allowing myself to rest more and take more breaks.

My appetite, post first chemo session of 4 Feb 2010, is somewhat less. I can still taste food; however, it doesn’t taste quite as wonderful.

I take my last post chemo tablet tonight at 8:15 pm and then can put them away until the next round of chemo – the morning following 25 Feb 2010. I am most grateful that, so far, other than that slight reflux situation the first morning after, I have had no problem with queasiness at all.

I find myself really thirsty and craving and drinking more water. That is a very good thing. Cold water tastes very good.

No hair loss as yet either. Tomorrow, I get my wig and make-up kit at the Look Good … Feel Better class at Laughlin Hospital Women’s Center. That should be interesting. My oncologist suggested that I might not lose the hair until the 3rd round of 8 chemo sessions. I’ll be ready just in case.

Today, I would like to structure a better-balanced, well-rounded routine. The big challenge is that I feel rather slow-motion today instead of my normal full-blast self-motivated gusto.

As the old saying goes, “How do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time.” (No offense meant to elephant lovers. I am an elephant lover too!) I will simply have to go with the flow and take all of this one step at a time.

I am so very grateful to God and all the prayers coming in my direction. The power of prayer can definitely work miracles. I also am so very grateful for my husband, my family, my friends, and all the other supportive people in my life – more than I probably can totally conceive. I know that well-being abounds for one and all. I will indeed be a breast cancer survivor. In fact, I already count myself among their ranks even though my treatment plan has barely begun.

Thanks for listening aka reading. I feel so much more peaceful now.

With so much love and balance to all of you,
Healing Seeker aka Debbie


  1. Hang in there Debbie…we’re thinking of you & are here if you need support. Though it sounds like you have an amazing support system already in place 🙂

    • Thank you so much for the wonderful support. Yes, I feel very blessed to have such a great support system in place. I definitely appreciate all prayers and well wishes.

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