Posted by: healingseeker | January 31, 2010

The calm before a possible storm of feelings

Breast Cancer picture created with Powerpoint by Debbie Dunn aka DJ Lyons

Breast Cancer picture created with Powerpoint by Debbie Dunn aka DJ Lyons

31 January 2010

Today, Sunday, is the calm before a possible storm of feelings. The sun is shining. About three inches of snow is on the ground making the countryside look like a winter wonderland. The house is quiet as my husband has driven to Knoxville to watch the basketball game. He is a sports writer for the Vols. I have just completed a couple of my freelance writing assignments and am taking a breather. The room where I sit is cozy and warm.

This past Thursday, I went to Laughlin Hospital to get three tests performed: Cat Scan or CT Scan, Echocardiogram to make certain my heart is strong enough for chemo, and my Bone Scan. The day went fine. The only side effect was that the liquid barium made me have about six rounds of the runs that did not end until about 9:30 at night as it is inert. In other words, the body does not process it. The second side effect is I have some bruising on my right arm as one of my veins got infiltrated. In other words, it popped. Fortunately, the particular brand of my Sub Q Port is a Power Loc Safety Infusion Port. Apparently, that is the only port that it is safe to use during a CT Scan. So I got my saline and Iodine infusion injected there. The other rather comical side effect is that when the iodine is injected, it causes a flush of warmth to go through the body. For a minute or two, you literally feel like you have wet yourself. I would warn anybody going through a CT Scan to visit a bathroom to empty your bladder immediately before you lie down on the scan table. That way, when the iodine is injected, you can feel confident that you did not really have an accident. Fortunately, that feeling passes after a couple of minutes. But it was rather unnerving at the time.

Tomorrow, Monday, the 1st of February, is the day I find out where all the cancer cells are located in my body. My husband and I go see my oncologist at 3:15. I will also attend my first cancer support group from 5:30 to 7:00 tomorrow evening. That might be really helpful dependent on what we learn.

A dear friend called yesterday. She gave me a very important tip or reminder. Rather than phrasing it as MY cancer cells or MY 3×5-inch tumor or MY breast cancer, I should say THE cancer calls or THE 3×5-inch tumor, or THE breast cancer. I should affirm to my body that we will get through this and that we truly are cancer-free and cancer-resistant. We will together go through the medical procedures; however, we will hold the strong vision of being cancer-free, cancer- resistant, and a breast cancer survivor aka thriver. That was a wonderful reminder. Thanks so much to that friend!

Another dear friend reminded me that I should visualize myself being so excited and relieved about what I will hear at that oncology appointment. That was another great reminder.

I know so many people are praying for me. I am so grateful to them for helping me hold that positive vision. My cousin by marriage even sent me a prayer shawl that I intend to wear during chemo treatments. My husband, family, and friends, and the many people who are new friends via the various support sites really help hold me up during this time. Naturally, God is an ever present support. One of my very favorite quotes by Mary Baker Eddy is “To those leaning on the sustaining infinite, today is big with blessings.” All of you are some of my very many blessings. Thank you! I feel so very blessed!

I know that my latest appointment with my surgeon lifted me up on high with the three very good pieces of news I received:
1. The marble-sized second tumor I thought I had found on the 21st of January was really just scar tissue from the biopsy incision.
2. The 3×5-inch tumor has not grown any bigger.
3. The tumor that was once firmly entrenched is now mobile. It can be moved around within my breast. This implies the cancer cells are not yet in my muscles and tissues. When I get the Mastectomy, they will therefore not need to cut out muscles and tissues which will speed up the healing time.

I was on a high for the rest of the day. It also helped that I met another dear friend for lunch in Johnson City that day. She was able to help me celebrate the good news. Plus, I called my husband and family first thing to tell them this news.

So this helps me remain calm today about the news my husband and I will learn tomorrow. I will, of course, keep you posted.

Have a wonderful and peaceful day,
Healing Seeker aka Debbie

31 January 2010

Today, Sunday, is the calm before a possible storm of feelings. The sun is shining. About three inches of snow is on the ground making the countryside look like a winter wonderland. The house is quiet as my husband has driven to Knoxville to watch the basketball game. He is a sports writer for the Vols. I have just completed a couple of my freelance writing assignments and am taking a breather. The room where I sit is cozy and warm.

This past Thursday, I went to Laughlin Hospital to get three tests performed: Cat Scan or CT Scan, Echocardiogram to make certain my heart is strong enough for chemo, and my Bone Scan. The day went fine. The only side effect was that the liquid barium made me have about six rounds of the runs that did not end until about 9:30 at night as it is inert. In other words, the body does not process it. The second side effect is I have some bruising on my right arm as one of my veins got infiltrated. In other words, it popped. Fortunately, the particular brand of my Sub Q Port is a Power Loc Safety Infusion Port. Apparently, that is the only port that it is safe to use during a CT Scan. So I got my saline and Iodine infusion injected there. The other rather comical side effect is that when the iodine is injected, it causes a flush of warmth to go through the body. For a minute or two, you literally feel like you have wet yourself. I would warn anybody going through a CT Scan to visit a bathroom to empty your bladder immediately before you lie down on the scan table. That way, when the iodine is injected, you can feel confident that you did not really have an accident. Fortunately, that feeling passes after a couple of minutes. But it was rather unnerving at the time.

Tomorrow, Monday, the 1st of February, is the day I find out where all the cancer cells are located in my body. My husband and I go see my oncologist at 3:15. I will also attend my first cancer support group from 5:30 to 7:00 tomorrow evening. That might be really helpful dependent on what we learn.

A dear friend called yesterday. She gave me a very important tip or reminder. Rather than phrasing it as MY cancer cells or MY 3×5-inch tumor or MY breast cancer, I should say THE cancer calls or THE 3×5-inch tumor, or THE breast cancer. I should affirm to my body that we will get through this and that we truly are cancer-free and cancer-resistant. We will together go through the medical procedures; however, we will hold the strong vision of being cancer-free, cancer- resistant, and a breast cancer survivor aka thriver. That was a wonderful reminder. Thanks so much to that friend!

Another dear friend reminded me that I should visualize myself being so excited and relieved about what I will hear at that oncology appointment. That was another great reminder.

I know so many people are praying for me. I am so grateful to them for helping me hold that positive vision. My cousin by marriage even sent me a prayer shawl that I intend to wear during chemo treatments. My husband, family, and friends, and the many people who are new friends via the various support sites really help hold me up during this time. Naturally, God is an ever present support. One of my very favorite quotes by Mary Baker Eddy is “To those leaning on the sustaining infinite, today is big with blessings.” All of you are some of my very many blessings. Thank you! I feel so very blessed!

I know that my latest appointment with my surgeon lifted me up on high with the three very good pieces of news I received:

1. The marble-sized second tumor I thought I had found on the 21st of January was really just scar tissue from the biopsy incision.

2. The 3×5-inch tumor has not grown any bigger.

3. The tumor that was once firmly entrenched is now mobile. It can be moved around within my breast. This implies the cancer cells are not yet in my muscles and tissues. When I get the Mastectomy, they will therefore not need to cut out muscles and tissues which will speed up the healing time.

I was on a high for the rest of the day. It also helped that I met another dear friend for lunch in Johnson City that day. She was able to help me celebrate the good news. Plus, I called my husband and family first thing to tell them this news.

So this helps me remain calm today about the news my husband and I will learn tomorrow. I will, of course, keep you posted.

Have a wonderful and peaceful day,

Healing Seeker aka Debbie


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